Einstein the wolf dog

We serve such an amazing and wonderful Lord…. Who, by the way, has great humor – and Who loves to answer prayer!!!!

 I shared in an earlier post about the wolf/dog the Lord
gave me in answer to my prayer for a dog to run with in the wilds of the woods around our home. Einstein is an incredible blessing – and has blessed me with another answer to another prayer (a prayer that the Lord would give me patience). As I was running with Einstein, there was some training that had to happen… I had to establish myself as the boss (not him). At one point, I became pretty impatient with Einstein and really got after him for his disobedience. That small, quiet voice asked…. what if I was as harsh with you when you disobey Me – where would that leave you? Very convicting – and I later realized that the Lord brought me Einstein not only in answer to my prayer for protection as I run, but in answer to my prayer to learn patience — practice makes (at least in my imperfectness) perfect (or at least better!). Praise God that He is patient with me! So grateful that He is the perfect Provider of exactly what I need to grow up, and to grow closer to Him.

God is the God Who heals!

In a lecture I heard last week, the speaker pointed out that Jesus healed the invalid at the pool in John chapter 5 when he (the invalid) did not know Who Jesus was, Who He is, nor did he have any faith in Him… Jesus healed him anyway.  He only knew Jesus and confessed Him aloud after Jesus found him at the temple and identified Himself to the man.
One of the things I have been (wrongly) thinking, was that Jesus heals people only when they have faith and ask Him.
That simply is not true!!!!!  Praise God for His Word that reveals His truth!
In my own story, I became bulimic (among many other issues/bondages!) when I was 16 years old.  My life was consumed with food (literally!) — what I would eat, when I would eat, how I would hide it, how I would get rid of it (read: vomit it up), and how I would hide that, too.  Pretty miserable time – and it lasted 24 years pretty much full-time.  I had become an atheist at the same time — definitely a God-hater.
In the fall of 1999 as an internet novice, somehow (a God coincidence, perhaps?) I found online an eating disorders group that was fairly close to my home. I had tried everything to get help for my bulimia without any success.  I began attending the group just before Thanksgiving.  Part of the requirement for being in the group was that you had to share your entire story — and I believed to my core that anyone who knew my story, knew ME, would run screaming from the room never to return.  I was given until Dec. 15 as grace, but then had to tell the whole messy story of my life.  I really wanted help/freedom and so agreed to tell it then.
No one ran screaming from the room.  WOW!!!  They all instead loved on me, accepted me and we began a relationship as a group that lasted nearly 4 years.  The lie I had been believing was brought to the light …. and miraculously I was completely healed on January 1, 2000.  I was totally free of bulimia — no obsessive thoughts about food.  No overeating and a complete shift to eating instead for the fuel of life… not the be all, end all of life that it had been.
I became a Christian January 10, 2010 — and only now do I realize that the miraculous healing  was done entirely in the healing power of Jesus and His Holy Spirit.  Just like the invalid, I did not know the God Who healed me, but in His goodness, grace and love, He reached out and touched me and healed me anyway.
Our Lord is our amazing, awesome and oh, so very loving Savior.  He IS the God Who heals!  Praising Him for His mercy and His grace.

God is faithful!!!

Great is His faithfulness!!!!

Praising God that His faithfulness is not based upon ours…..  God has done a great work in American believers (regardless of the outcome of this election!)….   He has awoken in us the recognition of our sin as a country and individually, and He has used this election season to bring us back to Him on our knees.  Praising Him for this trial which has revealed to us our incredible and desperate need for Him.

Yesterday, I had a conversation with a woman – a fellow believer – and her anger, her despair over our country and her loss of hope for our country’s future saddened me.  “Bring on judgement, we deserve it”,  she shared.

I, too, believe we deserve judgement….. but praise God that He is so very gracious!  He uses our sin, our unfaithfulness, and our suffering and trials to bring us back to our knees and dependence on Him.  Over the last years, I have seen us believers only remembering God when it is convenient – or when we have a personal need.  This past month, I have seen people returning to Him — recognizing YAHWEH as LORD of all.  I have seen people who have been lukewarm and who have forgotten Him in their daily life – praying only incidentally and infrequently – crying out to the Lord incessantly – both personally and corporately.  We are now begging Him for His mercy and His divine intervention in the mess that is us and our nation.     We have sinned – against our holy God and against the awesome gift He has given us in our America the Beautiful.  We have not stood for Him in our personal life…. nor have we stood for Him in our communities, or in our nation.  We have been willing to stand silently aside as our families and our country have descended into a cesspool of sin and horrible depravity.  We have not spoken out, but have been willing to stand by – to put our “heads in the sand” – rather than being willing to stand out and speak out against the terrible sins of our country, and our families.  We have bought the lie that we as a community of faith have no power and no voice.  THAT IS A LIE FROM THE PIT OF HELL!!!!

Yes, we deserve judgment, but we serve a God Who loves His people, and Who is Sovereign over everyone and everything.  Praising Him for the awesome gift of suffering and trial!  Our only hope is in God/Creator, El Shaddai who is in complete control of all things.  I am so grateful for the ugliness of this time in our history.  It has shown me our helplessness (both individually and as a country) to stand against the enemy without the LORD.  AND it has shown me His incredible power – He has the power to sustain us or to bring us down.  He has the power and puts “on the throne” whomever best serves His purposes.  If His purpose is to bring us to ruin for our sin – the sin within, and that which we have exported to every corner of the earth – so be it.  If it His purpose is to show mercy – and to have us recognize Whom it is Who is showing mercy, and to put Him on His rightful throne in our nation and in our personal walks with Him – so be it.

Praise the LORD!!!  We do not grieve as those who have no hope…  Our hope is in the LORD, and we live in the sure promise that we, as His beloved and redeemed people, will someday be with Him in His glorious and awesome kingdom here on earth when He comes to rule and reign in majesty, holiness and sovereignty.  Come, LORD Jesus, come!!!  Hallelujah!!!

 

 

Ezekiel speaks (to me!!) again…..

God’s wrath – a wrath and out of the jealousy of a spurned lover, and out of the desire to protect His beloved…..

I have struggled when people say that the God of the Old Testament – the God of wrath – can’t be the same God of love of the New Testament. Today in Ezekiel 16 I saw more clearly how God sees me and us from His perspective.  Please read Ezekiel 16:1-44 for a clear picture of what adultery looks like….. and try putting your name in the place of Jerusalem’s…..

The word of the Lord came to me: “Son of man, confront Jerusalem with her detestable practices and say, ‘This is what the Sovereign Lord says to Jerusalem: Your ancestry and birth were in the land of the Canaanites; your father was an Amorite and your mother a Hittite. On the day you were born your cord was not cut, nor were you washed with water to make you clean, nor were you rubbed with salt or wrapped in cloths. No one looked on you with pity or had compassion enough to do any of these things for you. Rather, you were thrown out into the open field, for on the day you were born you were despised.

“‘Then I passed by and saw you kicking about in your blood, and as you lay there in your blood I said to you, “Live!” I made you grow like a plant of the field. You grew and developed and entered puberty. Your breasts had formed and your hair had grown, yet you were stark naked.

“‘Later I passed by, and when I looked at you and saw that you were old enough for love, I spread the corner of my garment over you and covered your naked body. I gave you my solemn oath and entered into a covenant with you, declares the Sovereign Lord, and you became mine.

“‘I bathed you with water and washed the blood from you and put ointments on you. 10 I clothed you with an embroidered dress and put 

sandals of fine leather on you. I dressed you in fine linen and covered you with costly garments. 11 I adorned you with jewelry: I put bracelets on your arms and a necklace around your neck, 12 and I put a ring on your nose, earrings on your ears and a beautiful crown on your head.13 So you were adorned with gold and silver; your clothes were of fine linen and costly fabric and embroidered cloth. Your food was honey, olive oil and the finest flour. You became very beautiful and rose to be a queen. 14 And your fame spread among the nations on account of your beauty, because the splendor I had given you made your beauty perfect, declares the Sovereign Lord.

15 “‘But you trusted in your beauty and used your fame to become a prostitute. You lavished your favors on anyone who passed by and your beauty became his. 16 You took some of your garments to make gaudy high places, where you carried on your prostitution. You went to him, and he possessed your beauty.[b] 17 You also took the fine jewelry I gave you, the jewelry made of my gold and silver, and you made for yourself male idols and engaged in prostitution with them. 18 And you took your embroidered clothes to put on them, and you offered my oil and incense before them. 19 Also the food I provided for you—the flour, olive oil and honey I gave you to eat—you offered as fragrant incense before them. That is what happened, declares the Sovereign Lord.

20 “‘And you took your sons and daughters whom you bore to me and sacrificed them as food to the idols. Was your prostitution not enough?21 You slaughtered my children and sacrificed them to the idols. 22 In all your detestable practices and your prostitution you did not remember the days of your youth, when you were naked and bare, kicking about in your blood.

23 “‘Woe! Woe to you, declares the Sovereign Lord. In addition to all your other wickedness, 24 you built a mound for yourself and made a lofty shrine in every public square. 25 At every street corner you built your lofty shrines and degraded your beauty, spreading your legs with increasing promiscuity to anyone who passed by. 26 You engaged in prostitution with the Egyptians, your neighbors with large genitals, and aroused my anger with your increasing promiscuity. 27 So I stretched out my hand against you and reduced your territory; I gave you over to the greed of your enemies, the daughters of the Philistines, who were shocked by your lewd conduct. 28 You engaged in prostitution with the Assyrians too, because you were insatiable; and even after that, you still were not satisfied. 29 Then you increased your promiscuity to include Babylonia,[c] a land of merchants, but even with this you were not satisfied.

30 “‘I am filled with fury against you,[d] declares the Sovereign Lord, when you do all these things, acting like a brazen prostitute! 31 When you built your mounds at every street corner and made your lofty shrines in every public square, you were unlike a prostitute, because you scorned payment.

32 “‘You adulterous wife! You prefer strangers to your own husband! 33 All prostitutes receive gifts, but you give gifts to all your lovers, bribing them to come to you from everywhere for your illicit favors. 34 So in your prostitution you are the opposite of others; no one runs after you for your favors. You are the very opposite, for you give payment and none is given to you.

35 “‘Therefore, you prostitute, hear the word of the Lord! 36 This is what the Sovereign Lord says: Because you poured out your lust and exposed your naked body in your promiscuity with your lovers, and because of all your detestable idols, and because you gave them your children’s blood,37 therefore I am going to gather all your lovers, with whom you found pleasure, those you loved as well as those you hated. I will gather them against you from all around and will strip you in front of them, and they will see you stark naked. 38 I will sentence you to the punishment of women who commit adultery and who shed blood; I will bring on you the blood vengeance of my wrath and jealous anger. 39 Then I will deliver you into the hands of your lovers, and they will tear down your mounds and destroy your lofty shrines. They will strip you of your clothes and take your fine jewelry and leave you stark naked. 40 They will bring a mob against you, who will stone you and hack you to pieces with their swords. 41 They will burn down your houses and inflict punishment on you in the sight of many women. I will put a stop to your prostitution, and you will no longer pay your lovers. 42 Then my wrath against you will subside and my jealous anger will turn away from you; I will be calm and no longer angry.

43 “‘Because you did not remember the days of your youth but enraged me with all these things, I will surely bring down on your head what you have done, declares the Sovereign Lord. Did you not add lewdness to all your other detestable practices?

44 “‘Everyone who quotes proverbs will quote this proverb about you: “Like mother, like daughter.” 45 You are a true daughter of your mother, who despised her husband and her children; and you are a true sister of your sisters, who despised their husbands and their children.

God’s wrath against us is the wrath of jealousy — if He did not care, if He did not love us, if He were indifferent to us, He would not feel the pain of our rejection.  He loves us so deeply — His wrath is that of a spurned lover.  Even though we spurned Him and His amazing gifts, He came in the flesh to woo us back to Him.  We rejected Him (Him Who had given such beautiful gifts, such love) and we killed Him.  He took the wrath we deserve for spurning Him – rejecting His love, His gifts, His provision — and we killed Him.  He took the wrath we deserve, for spurning Him and using His gifts to prostitute ourselves to idols, upon Himself to death on a cross and the agony of hell.  His love is so big that He was willing to take our just punishment for our worship of ourselves and our worship of so many other idols upon Himself to rescue us from the punishment we so deserve.

Have you ever felt that jealous – that you wanted to punish, even kill, someone for taking (or trying to take) what you love from you?

The other wrath of the Old Testament is that of a protective wrath against those who intend to harm His beloved people.  The Lord refers to His children as the sheep of His sheep hold…. and as the Shepherd, He will do whatever is necessary to protect and shield His sheep from the enemy — be they human or the evil spirit of this world.  The wrath He poured (and pours) out on our enemies is the wrath intended to keep His beloved people safe from the harm intended by their enemies.  It’s sort of like the wrath of a mama bear when her babies are threatened…., she will attack anything that threatens them with incredible power and viciousness.

As I read these passages and reflected on my own life, I realized how much I have been the whore — seeking after money, possessions — grasping all that I could without gratitude or worship of the awesome Giver of the gifts and provision.  God is so gracious — He has seen my wickedness, but instead of giving me the punishment I deserve for the many, many awful things I have done, He took my punishment on His body Himself.  He payed the price I owed for the “crimes” I had committed (against Him and against others) that I might live and be free.  Oh, what a Savior!

I am so grateful, too, that He is the God Who protects His people….  so thankful that He has protected and provided for me!

 

 

Ezekiel speaks…..

I was blind, but now I see (at least a little more clearly!)

Ezekiel 13:17-21 Now, son of man, set your face against the daughters of your people who prophesy out of their own imagination.  Prophesy against them and say, “This is what the Sovereign Lord says: Woe to the women who sew magic charms on all their wrists and make veils of various lengths for their heads in order to ensnare people.  Will you ensnare the lives of my people but preserve your own?  You have profaned Me among My people for a few handfuls of barley and scraps of bread.  By lying to My people, who listen to lies, you have killed those who should not have died and have spared those who should not live.”

   “Therefore this is what the Sovereign Lord says:  I am against your magic charms with which you ensnare people like birds and I will tear them from your arms; I will set free the people you ensnare like birds.  I will tear off your veils and save my people from your hands, and they will no longer fall prey to your power.  Then you will know that I am the Lord.”

I read the following article and remembered Who it is we serve — a God of love Who is in the business of saving the lost.  Praising Him for His love and mercy!!!!

http://cnsnews.com/commentary/eric-metaxas/rest-muslim-refugee-story-muslims-meet-jesus-thousands

I thought about veils…..  they are intended to create “mystery” and to cover up the true identity of the person who is behind the veil.  They also (for some of us) create fear — as the person behind the veil is unknowable and unpredictable — their countenance is hidden so that their motives are obscured.  I have wrestled with fear when I have been around Muslim women in bourkas.  For me, because I could not see the woman behind the bourka, I became afraid – afraid and unwilling to reach out with a hand of welcome or relationship.

I praise You Lord that You have shown me something different than the lie that I was believing and the fear that was blinding me to the reality that these women and people are potentially Yours.  Praise You that You see beyond their veils and that You reach out Your hand to rescue and remove the veil so that the woman behind it might be known.

Praise You that You are rescuing the Muslims — that You are the God of the impossible!  That You aren’t limited by my/our human frailty and fear, and that You rescue those whom we see as beyond hope.  Praise the Sovereign Lord, Creator of all things and everyone!!!!!!

 

America the Beautiful

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America, The Beautiful

by Katharine Lee Bates – 1913

O beautiful for spacious skies,
For amber waves of grain,
For purple mountain majesties
Above the fruited plain!
America! America! God shed His grace on thee,
And crown thy good with brotherhood
From sea to shining sea!

O beautiful for pilgrim feet,
Whose stern impassion’d stress
A thoroughfare for freedom beat
Across the wilderness!
America! America! God mend thine ev’ry flaw,
Confirm thy soul in self-control,
Thy liberty in law!

I have been exploring the beautiful countryside God has landed us in over the last several weeks.  Our country is truly gorgeous…  As I ran Thursday, I saw lush forests over mounded hills.  I saw field after field with ripe hay waving in the wind.  I thought about (and sang) “America the Beautiful” and wept for our country and the darkness that has begun to prevail in our cities and our peoples. All things are possible in the Lord….. and He counsels us not to despair in the face of impossible odds, but to praise and worship Him in all things.  The downward spiral of the United States over the last couple of years – the increase in violence, in depravity, in our failure to protect our children from the manipulation of really bad people (gender changes funded by our government for 6 year olds is one of them!) has brought me to tears. God uses even the really awful things that happen to bring about great good for those who love Him.  Our only hope is in Him.  I am praying that He will show up in a mighty way to bring about the change only He can do – however and whatever that might be.

Yesterday, I explored the Capital Forest (south of Olympia).  The picture above is from a ridge high above the valley floor.  I was so aware of His presence with me and was blessed with His peace… yes, even joy.  The road up was unrelentingly steep – up and up and up.  I saw dual hawks soaring over the ridge I was on… and Mt. Rainier far in the background.  I am so blessed to have this season of rest – a time of unexpected down time and quiet after the past couple of months of upheaval. (Isaiah 40:28-31).

 

Adversity and Victory

It has been a time of adversity for both Ben and me.  God has been with us all the way through all of the craziness that has gone on in the past month, but it has been really, really difficult and disorienting at times. Praising the Lord — He has given me back my joy and peace in Him.

A few months ago, we made an strong offer on a beautiful farm which was exactly what we had wanted. The offer should have been enthusiastically accepted – but was not. We believe that God’s plan for us did not include buying a home at this time, and we are waiting on Him for direction about what He would have us do.

There have been some times during and since the move when I have been incredibly overwhelmed. The move went differently than expected…. I had agreed that the movers would do the furniture prep on Wednesday, and then come to move us on Thursday. They came Wednesday morning and announced that the house would be completely emptied into the trucks that day, and then they would meet us at the storage unit in Centralia on Thursday. Basically, we were 90-95% packed (but the important stuff — our bedroom, closet, toiletries, the last of the kitchen — weren’t packed). They swooped in and before I knew it (I was occupied packing the kitchen) they had emptied our bedroom and closet into unlabeled boxes. I’ve been struggling to figure out where some of the important stuff of life is….

Ben had a couple of mishaps the week of our move, and my purse was stolen from the front of the RV a week ago (with my phone, id, credit cards etc.) We are pulling everything back together, but it has been a challenge. God has been teaching me/us some tough (but necessary!) lessons.

Over a year ago, I began praying that the Lord would equip me for what He has coming for me/us, and He is answering that prayer — and it looks so different than I anticipated! I had been depending on Ben to handle some of the chores I did not want to handle here. God showed me that I need to learn to handle the stuff of life myself so that if anything happened I could know what to do. Great lesson and wake-up call.

It has been very difficult. However, I know God is good, and I KNOW His plans for me are good — He promises to prosper me and not to harm me (Jeremiah 29:11). He also promises never to leave me or forsake me (Deuteronomy 31:6) — and He has been with me in all of this. He has restored my joy and my peace… and His presence is very, very real. I am so grateful. He has also shown me how incredibly blessed I am. He has supplied our needs in abundance. He has also given me areas of wonderful beauty to run in only a little over a mile away where I cross over the Chehalis River (He leads me beside still waters and restores my soul – Psalm 23), and where I wind my way through beautiful fields of hay and hills heavily forested and lush. He gives me such joy and reveals Himself in the glories of His creation. I am so very blessed.

God has been closing the door on anything I have planned and tried to do up in the metro area. I tried to go for a hair appointment with the stylist I have been with for 20 years last week (and gave myself plenty of time to traverse the 90 miles between here and there!), but He closed that door as it was impossible to get there because of traffic.  The Lord has been showing me that I need to begin to build my/our home here — to begin investing in our new church family, to build relationships with those He is bringing into my life, to be His ambassador here in the RV park and to those He puts in my path.  We don’t know what He has in store for us…. and we know that He only reveals the 6 inches right in front of our toes!  As I see it, my job is to love Him, to love those He puts around me, and to trust Him fully in all things and in every circumstance I find myself in.  Praising Jesus that He is with me in all things, and that He promises never to give me more than I can bear without a way out (1 Cor. 10:13).  The Lord is good….  and He has us in His strong arms and is carrying us through.  His alone is the victory, and He is and will be the ultimate Victor!!!!